Tuesday, March 20, 2007

The Hiatus

(or what I do with my free time now that I'm not wasting time sleeping)

Work. School. Sleep (well not really, but I try). Writing essays like my life depends on it (which it kind of does because my parents would kill me if I didn't graduate on time).

Such is the life.

I'm more angry than usual, probably because I can't sleep - it seems as if I can't calm down. Normally I can just block everything out and sleep just a bit but lately, no dice. I can sleep for a couple of hours but it's only because I'm so tired as a result of not sleeping for a couple of days, and on those days I just end up crashing at 6 or something ridiculous.

I turns out I'm far more broken up over the dissolution of my pseudo-relationship with The Engineer than I thought I would be, but lo and behold that's all I could think of when I woke up this morning (2 am, in case you were wondering). I need to figure things out, soon because I can't kep going on like this...

On the plus side, I finally have ID again (my wallet was stolen a little while ago) so at least I can drink and smoke away the pain again.

Three cheers for unhealthy lifestyles!

7 comments:

M said...

I wish I had some magical words to fix the anger and lack of sleep. How about the phrase, "Fuck it" and some Tylenol PM?

team gingerbread said...

m - sounds good. The sleeping thing seems to have somewhat resolved itself after a somewhat heated phone convo. I kind of let things go on for way too long until I finally snap and rage on everyone around

Heather said...

I get the same way. Plus I'm working 7:30 a.m-4 p.m. now AND doing school.

Talk about raging bitch.
Hope it gets better for you :]

Eric said...

why do pseudo-relationship break ups suck so bad?

team gingerbread said...

eric - I think because we're only in it halfway in our minds, but are hearts are in on it whole hog. my theory at least, you know...

Eric said...

It's like you spend the whole part of your relationship scrambling to try and define it but yet when its over... it defines it.

team gingerbread said...

eric- I know, talk about a letdown. The denouement overshadows the whole thing...